Evan

Take a step back from your life.

Look at the world with objective eyes.

We all have issues that are bad but

for some each day brings a new demise:

"Don't you dare say my name

because you don't know who I am.

Don't you dare look at me like that.

No, I won't say yes sir or yes m'am.

"You think you have troubles.

Each day makes you feel sad.

Well you don't know anything

try living without having a dad.

"You want to complain about how

the day's strain hurts your back?

Well how about not having a mom

Because she's too addicted to crack.

"If you want to say something, say it.

My fists will do all of my talking.

I'll swing away at you with all my might.

From a fight you'll never see me walking.

"I'm sorry I react in such a crude way.

But anger is the only way I can react.

Now they've kicked me out of school,

because they say I know not how to act.

"Now people think that I'm an animal;

That I need to learn how to be a man

and control the beasts inside my soul.

Caged up but that's not part of my plan.

"My grandma just doesn't get it

and I just know neither do you.

You don't know what life's like with anger

How one word can make trouble ensue.

"The old man that is my male figure,

is just a senile man that watches me.

Don't you dare lay a finger on my things

or you'll set the animal inside me free.

"So judge me all you want, I don't care.

I'm just an eight year old trying to survive.

My world has spun without control

each day since the first I was alive."

The kid just looks at me with angry eyes.

He says I know nothing about his story.

He's right, I don't, and I thought I had it bad.

Now I'm praying in bed glory, glory, glory.

Open my eyes and shed light to his story.

Glory, glory, glory...

Time Flies

They say that time flies.

Well, I'd fly for you.

Then time might slow down.

It's just what'd I'd do.

First a minute, then an hour,

Now a year has gone by.

The clock keeps on spinning

With each blink of my eye.

I want to slow it down

before my life goes away.

But if I think about it,

do I really cherish each day?

Do I live life to the fullest?

Do I make use of my time?

Or do I give it all away when

the moment should be mine?

Now I'm so worried about time

Another precious day passed.

If I waste my time with worries

My precious days won't last.

Well,

My future's kind of hard to see

But, my present's in front of me.

So let's just say it's okay to be.

No wills, no dids, just now you see?

Suddenly, the time slowed down.

And I'm feeling with each inhale,

My senses spiked with sudden life

And times hands will not prevail.

I'd still fly for you if need be

But, not to stop time's dive.

I've learned to beat it's trickery

And now, finally, I am alive.

Monsters pt. 1

Mirror, mirror take a look at me.

Staring straight back, can this really be?

You see,

I use to be afraid of the things in my closet.

Monsters in my house, I guess I never got it.

Sipped ignorance in my goblet.

The covers were my only protections.

Their fabric became my safe section,

with one exception.

The monsters then patrolled the days

and the covers couldn't hide sun rays.

Then I'd fray.

They were scary creatures, only seen by me.

I tried to point them out but no one else could see,

the monsters set free.

I was young, ignorant, and just learning too.

Then years went by and I suddenly grew,

and then I suddenly knew.

These monsters were the grownups with hatred and words.

They did so many things that I thought were so absurd.

I was bothered.

And so I promised I would fight them until I die.

I wouldn't let them harm me, even if they made me cry.

But that was all a lie.

Now mirror, mirror why am I suddenly green?

What's wrong with my eyes and why am I so mean?

I'm on the wrong team.

I used to fight monsters and everything they've done.

Like taking away my innocence and destroying all my fun.

But now I'm becoming one.

Hurts All the Same

Not a scratch to be seen,

he's perfectly fine.

For all wounds heal

in a matter of time.

He walks with a swag

and talks like a pro.

The kid has no problems,

well, none that they know.

Some scars are too deep

for naked eyes to see.

His well lived life comes

with a hidden fee.

He takes a pill to

soothe all his pain,

but his damaged inside

hurts all the same.

Words can pierce skin

and break thru the soul.

But the skin won't always

show the words' toll.

Suddenly, they notice

a limp in his step.

His voice is weaker

and he forces his pep.

Too late, they noticed

how damaged he was.

His soul forever broken

and no one knew because

they think physical is

the only kind of abuse.

But words are as bad

or worse in ill use.

Be aware of signs of

one with inside strife.

They caught on too late.

he's battered for life.

Just So You Know

It might be hard to see (this).

But, it gets hard for me (miss).

To see how you can be (amiss)

when shelter is here for you.

You fight me when I send (aid).

And scream when I won't bend (unswayed).

Then blow up before you mend (grenade).

Shattering me to bits.

I'd offer you some shade (near).

From pain this world made (here).

Just promise you won't fade (dear)

And I'll stay by your side.

I try to do my best (for you).

Sometimes I'll fail a test (or two).

But know that I won't rest (it's true)

Until you see the light.

You could become a star (bright).

And shine to places far (light).

If you'd just raise your bar (might)

And not run from the world.

I guess that's all I have to (say).

Turn the page and start anew (day).

Sometimes, life will test you (way).

You can survive, and, I am here.

Life Doesn't Wait

Feet snug in the mud.

Hoping I don't get stuck.

Now my shoes are dirty,

and I'm feeling out of luck.

Tried wishing for better days.

Picked out a shooting star.

Feels like they never hear me,

maybe they're just too far.

Ones across the clock,

show up twice in a while.

The twos show up too quickly,

like one's going out of style.

Now I'm stuck with my girly dreams;

They keep me wishing on fate,

But my somber slumber sobers me:

Life just doesn't wait.

I untie my dirty, heave shoes

and with bare feet walk on.

Controlling my own path and

making my brighter dawn.

No more time for shooting stars.

No more time for silly dreams.

If you want a better reality,

trust in you, as crazy as it seems.

Demon's Throne

Pushing the closet shut,

Hoping they don't come out.

Voices inside my head,

hearing them scream and shout.

Why won't they leave me alone?

Why won't they just let me be?

Trying to live my life, but

the demons keep haunting me.

Memories just won't fade;

Too vivid for me to forget.

Wanting to stop all these games,

But the memories won't let me quit.

Haunting my every dream.

Why won't they just let me sleep?

Good thoughts I long for,

but bad thoughts in do they seep.

Waiting for the day when

they finally leave me alone.

But for now I stay,

kneeling to the demon's throne.

Done with your Games

To Whom This May Concern,

This right here is my final goodbye.

No more second guessing and asking why.

I'm done with the things you put me thru;

And to think that I did them all for you.

I am worth more than you valued me at.

Now my back is turning, try living with that.

To put it simply, I can do better than you.

It's your loss now, no more starting anew.

So goodbye old mate, this ship is sailing.

No tears from me, it's you who'll be wailing.

Signed,

Done with your games

Slipping Under

Treading waters.

Floaties turn into weights.

Heavy breathing.

No raft to sedate.

Not a swimmer,

But in the sea.

Limited options,

in order to be free.

Helping hands,

slowly pull away.

No more reason,

for them to stay.

Tried to help,

But help was refused.

Now the devil's

Slightly more amused.

Darkness wins.

They all wonder.

Treading stops.

Slipping under.

Sleep Forever

This world's a crazy place,

escape with me.

Locked up in a bird cage,

set me free.

Any place on this earth,

with you I'd go.

For you mean more to me,

than you ever will know.

I'll stay with you

in dark and stormy weather.

I swear,

If we can only be in my dreams,

I'll sleep forever.

Sleeplessness

I can’t help it,

I keep losing sleep.

Maybe it’s cause,

My thoughts are too deep.

Marathoners,

They run around.

In my bed,

No quiet sound.

Maybe thoughts,

Aren’t to blame.

By chance,

I might be sane.

I blame you,

Crazy as it seems.

Cause with you,

Reality trumps dreams.